Goodbye January!

I am going to try and get better on track on here. Even though my life will get even busier, I need to take time to get this stuff recorded!
We got Clover!!! He is awesome! My mom and I went up to Alto, GA to get him last Tuesday. I fell instantly in love with him when I seen his beautiful face, and judging by his massive mom and dad he will one day be HUGE! He is a sweet boy and super smart. He is 9 weeks and 3 days old now and is already becoming my best friend. He has a few puppy issues we are working on as all pups do, but he is smart as a whip and with his face its hard to even get mad at him! We started breaking him of sleeping in the bed last night and he did way better than I had expected. He is already 20 pounds after being check at the Vet on Friday. He is 2 rounds of shots away from being safe to travel anywhere I go and I am really excited to finally get him out in the world and show him off!!
Yesterday I had my Pure Romance party. It started off badly before the party because I had so many people cancel or not respond at all, but in the end there was 10 of us here and it was a blast!!! I got to see 4 girls I havent seen since high school and it was so fun!! They all look great and I am really hoping to get them back in my life more than just yesterday! I was super excited to see them! The party went great and everyone seemed to have a good time. (well, except Clover who was unhappy to be tethered next to me the whole time on the floor.)
I am going to be re-RE-buckling down this next month and trying to get another 8 pounds off. Thats a small goal if I really work hard. I slipped up bad yesterday stuffing my face with pizza, mini eclairs and red Spumante, but I am going to be buckling back down now. Now if this awful wet nasty cold weather would change to early spring that would be awesome! Come on Beau!!! Go out and play!!! Mama wants some SUN!!!!
I am working more in Christopher's class now during the week. I am loving it. So much in fact that I am seriously starting to consider changing to being a teacher instead of a nurse when I finally go back to school in a few years. His teacher said she can see it in me and thinks I would make and awesome teacher which really means a lot to me.
I have decided to go back to half a pill of my medication through the rest of the cold season just to be on the safe side. I cant get out much for exercise since its in the 30s and raining almost every day, so I want to play it safe until warmer weather gets here.
Today I am going to be working on just relaxing and planning the weeks meals out and getting ready for Monday. Everyone gets a bath today including Clover and I plan on resting some and getting my energy back. I am pretty sleepy and needing a good recharge so I can get on track again and get the house back under control after our new addition. :)
Hope everyone has a warmer dryer day than us!
♥ Robin

TODAY!!!

TODAY! TODAYTODAYTODAY!!!!


HE IS COMING TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Finally a real update!

Been so busy!!! January has been full of everything! Playdates, the stomach flu, baby showers, and still I have a passion party this weekend coming up and then next month will be even MORE busy!!! Life is good! (Even when the stomach flu makes you think you are half dead!)
I have lost a little over 25 pounds now and I am still working towards my goal! Christopher is doing great in school! Laci is becoming a little girl now and growing quickly out of her baby/toddler stage! Life is good!
Today is Christopher's 100 days party at school. We made cupcakes for his class today. I know he is always excited when he gets to be the one whose mommy made cupcakes because I remember when I was little how awesome I felt knowing it was ME who supplied the class with cake! :)
I have a very special surpise coming on Valentine's day. I am not coming right out and saying what it is....but it isnt hard to figure it out! LOL! I cannot wait!!!!!
This week we have a playdate tomorrow and today me and Laci are going to get out of the house since it has been nasty all weekend.
I have already started planning Laci's THIRD birthday because its only a few weeks away now! I cannot believe that my baby girl is turning THREE already! Craziness!
Her birthday will be Ladybug themed! :) I am already all over this and LOVING the theme! I wanted to go with something other than the "princess" or "barbie" and I was so excited to come up with this one! Her gift will be her very first BIKE! A bike! For cripes sake my baby is riding a BIKE!!!
I have so much going on in my life anymore it seems easier sometimes to do a quick status update on facebook instead of really getting on here and catching up. But I have to stop and take a minute to get on here because one day this will be a small book of our first years together as a family and that is so very important to me.
Well, as always I have a zillion things on my schedual so I hope any and all readers have a blessed day!
xoxoxo

HAPPY.....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRANDMA!!!!

I so wish I was there to spend this day with you, but I am always there in heart! I miss you so much, and try to tell you all year how much you mean to me, but on your birthday I want you to be sure you know that I love you to the moon and back. You have always been my friend before anything else. You are an amazing mom, grandma, and wife....but you are a friend to all...and that kind of heart is an inspiration to me every day! I love you so much! I love your smile, and your laugh and your funny things you say. I miss you so much. Life has always been a little less sunny living so far away from you, and I am glad that some of your grandkids got to experience living so close to you their whole lives. Its a prize I wish I had gotten to win too. I know there is a ton of people who love you so much, but in the crowd there will always be me as well. I will love you forever and I will always be here for you through thick and thin and will never turn my back on you or make you feel unloved. Thanks for being my grandma!

I love you bunches! Wish I could splurge on a piece of cake with you today...and a daqueri tonight! Ha!!!

XOXOXOX

♥ ♥ ♥

Robin

(and Brian, Christopher, and Laci)

Monday Monday...

Not a lot to report on. The school has been cancelled again today which is lame and stupid if you ask me, but I dont make the rules. We are now out of snow days for the year and its only the first month into winter...a winter, may I add, that the almanac is calling for ice storms by February's end...so we will see how that goes.
The weekend was nice and quiet. We got some smaller projects doe around the house and we moved the furniture in the livingroom and it looks a lot better now which makes me happy. Today I am thinking of touching up the walls but I may wait til later in the week for that. Today I need to work on luandry as always and I am thinking of taking the kids somewhere, I am just not sure where yet. I thought about that DAK kids in Acworth, but I have to call and see if the heat is working and if they are swamped.
Off to get stuff done!

Another chilly day!

Woke up to wind advisory warnings this morning on my phone. Apparently when the wind blows at 11* it brings the temp down to ohhhh ZERO, lol! So that is the warning through 10am this morning which is in a half hour at which point we will warm up nicely to 15*. :) But as always here in GA we will be bouncing back into the 50s by Tuesday and then will surely plummet again within a few days after. Gotta love it.


I am planning our first family getaway for the year for March. We are headed down to Daytona to see my Grandparents. We will only stay for 2 days and plan on visiting as much as we can with them, and in the free time taking the kids down to the beach to play in the sand (it will still be way too cold to swim) and to go out to eat and get some good pictures. I think we will take them to Bubba Gump's for lunch since it has special meaning for me and Brian. Its pricey, but well worth it. I guess I will have to let my diet slide for a day or two! ;)


Today I have to go to the store and get the kids some pants since both of them have hit a growth spurt and are now the next size up for them both with Christopher now being a size 6 and Laci a 3T in the pants! Its funny how it happens. Winter starts and everyone goes in for the winter and in the sping all the kids emerge 6 inches taller! LOL!! So that is my big fun shopping trip planned for the day. I am actually looking foward to a little quiet time, but I think I may actually need to take Christopher with me. I wonder if I could sneak him away for the clothes shopping and maybe to a movie to watch Alvin and the Chipmunks. Hmmm....probably not, brian has cars left from yesterday to finish since 2 houses he was unable to get to yesterday because of the ice on a hill. Althousnt much ice, in some spots it was just inconvenient enough to roll your eyes in disgust and walk away irritated at how such a small amount of it could still muck up your day.


Anyhow hope anyone who reads this mess anymore is enjoying their weekend. I dont think I have any real faithful readers anymore, but the blog goes on bc it is my escape and my way of recording life for my family. I like being able to look back in the years on here and remember with perfect clarity some events thanks to toe wonder of technology. :) I need to get started on printing it out soon since I am starting to gain years on this thing and dont want to chance losing it.


Have a great weekend!

PANIC! CHAOS!

Teehee


Well, here we are with a state of emergancy declared in GA over our whopping 1/16th of an inch of snow and ice we got yesterday and has yet to thaw. Enjoy the pics!




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Happy wednesday....

Christopher is back to school, Brian is back to work, things are starting to get normal after a very abnormal holiday break. It was nice though, to not get the empty feeling after Christmas this year like I usually do. The holidays flew by this year and the new year is already almost a week in and I am already feeling this one fly by as fast! I bought a nice notebook that I plan on cracking open tonight and starting on. It will be a one stop place for the whole year to be planned in. Everything from birthdays to me and Brian's trip to Biloxi in July to christmas will be planned in it. I am excited by this idea. I also am excited to be sitting here at my new desk to help me get orgnaized. I plan on getting my whole house organized before Spring so that maybe I can spend more time playing and less time wondering where crap is when the warm weather returns.
I have an extensive list of things I need to do at the moment including making a dentist appointment for this tooth finally. Yes the SAME tooth I had a cavity found in in August of 2008!!! Crazy! So I am working on that, and a million other things. Today I am going to measure my pictures I bought in Daytona a few months back and also get the downstairs closet cleaned, the linen closet shelf down and moved and the bedroom closet started. Being 10am and I am still sitting on my rear end doesnt help me at all!
I have a headache...again....and it is getting to be an everyday occurance. I am hoping starting my period a full week early may have something to do with the current frequency of it all.
Its freezing! 18* this morning and possibly our first taste of snow tomorrow, I really would love to see some soon! The almanac promised ice storms and snow and we havent seen crap so far but cold rain! ick!
Well anyhow thats a general emptying of my brains recycle bin this morning. Hope you all have a blessed day!

12.....

Today is Cheyenne's 12th birthday. I am not sure if its odd to say it like that since my daughter passed away almost 6 years ago, nor do I know if it's odd that I have considered picking up a card today and dropping it by her remains at my mom's house, but I know in my heart it feels right even though I have since decided against the card idea...we all know how bad I am at sending cards anyhow.
I layed in bed last night at 11:45 on the verge of the beginning of my horrible night's sleep and started thinking about how at that very moment, 12 years prior, I was making run after run to the bathroom in my mom's hallway sitting in the toilet in what seemed like blinding light, wondering if I was dying...before I actually did. (and as we can all safely assume, brought back...twice that night actually) Then my brain started to snowball. Instead of thinking of playing with her, or holding her, or the first time I seen her look at me and smile, I started thinking of all the sadness her little life was filled with. Her sitting in the stroller outside the daycare watching all the "normal" kids play on the playground, or the time they put her shoe on wrong at school and bent her toe up and she spent hours in pain before I got there (and in my mommy wisdom figured out the problem in about 30 seconds flat and even though I was fuming I said nothing to the people at the daycare), I thought about the time my ex spanked her hard enough to bruise her butt and I freaked out not knowing what to do because of both my fear of the ex himself, and the fear that I had failed miserably as a protector. I thought about those pictures in the homicide detectives office...where DFCS had come to take pictures of the bruises on her face and body and not knowing she was being pictured for abuse, continued to try and smile through her pain in each one. I thought about the terrible ending her life had....and I lost it. I sobbed so hard. I will never forget her sad little life, I will never forgive myself for failing her. I will never forgive sending her into the lion's den and all but forgetting about her while I celebrated being a free person, selfishly I celebrated being free....free of my child??? What kind of monster does that? I can put on the play now and show everyone how great of a parent I can be, but in my heart, in my mind, like a chain only being as strong as its weakest link, I will never feel like I am any better than the mom I was 12 years ago...8 years ago...when I kissed her goodbye, and drove away thinking I was helping her more than hurting....5 1/2 years ago....when I kissed her goodbye and wondered what I had done. What kind of terrible mother I was to let my baby be hurt. I doubt I will ever let myself forgive myself. I changed that day in 2004. I hardened my heart and became a different person...and angry person. No closure, no justice, no relief for my heart and brain. Almost 6 years later I can snowball so violently so fast into the same rage and sorrow I felt that day in 2004...I know my heart is no where near ready to heal...

Happy Birthday Cheyenne, I wish I had been the mommy to you that I have magically been able to be to Christopher and Laci.

Hello New Year! Hello New Decade!!!!

Here it is! The first morning of the first year in the new decade! It is going to be a good year. I am sure it wont come without its fair share of heartache that every year brings, but it will also come with a whole new year's worth of memories to keep our hearts happy and full!
I don't think I am going to attempt any resolutions as to me they are kind of cliche and often have a reputation for being broken. And to me, that is just not a good way to start a new year. Instead I like to come up with new ideas and plans on how to enrich my life and the lives of my children and husband in the upcoming months. Being 2010 is especially crazy to me since we are now out of single digits and I will never see another year in my lifetime start with "0-something" so its a brand new era in a way.
I am hoping to come up with a good way to get some good times packed into this next year and really embrace my life as a whole. I am going to spend more time this year catering to those who desrve it and not those I only do because I feel obligated to do so. I am going to focus on getting back a social life as I have been a hermit in this house for too long and now and I am beginning to have trouble getting comfortable with social situations and I dont like the way that makes me feel. I also want to start working with Laci on school stuff since I really got cracking when Christopher turned 3 as well. The biggest thing I hope to accomplish is to get more organized and have more to do with my time than sit at a computer. I want to start working on printing pictures of my kids and getting a small library together of picture albums. I want to plan at least one weekend away with my husband (Margaritaville Casino in Biloxi in July) and one weekend away for myself. I want to have a family vacation at least once, but preferrably twice this year and I want to continue to lose weight and get healthy.
Today I will work on starting some plans and I will also work on finding a desk that can actually hold all my stuff! LOL!
I hope 2010 brings as much happiness as 2009 and more!
Lots of love from us to you!
Robin, Brian, Christopher, and Laci