Seems like this weekend was about 35 days long and almost every moment of it was stressful except for the pure bliss (which I gladly traded for) on saturday morning.
First Thurday christopher had to stay home from school sick. I was sure it was Bronchitis (but then again I am always *sure* its the worse) But we took him to the doctor and it turned out to just be a lingering nasty cough from the cold we all had 2 weeks ago. Wierd, yes, but not the first time this has occured.
Friday was ok, It was hot as can be and I spent my morning going to BJs to stock up on stuff around the house and then I went to two consignment sales with Tiffany. We found a few things and then headed home. The rest of the day was ok...HOT...but ok, and then it was topped off with a nice night and some needed sleep.
Saturday started off great! We packed the kids up and went to the beach on the lake here in Kellogg Creek and it was almost magical. The water was cool, the boats were all sailing past..even a charter club of sail boats came by...the kids loved the water which was clean, and the sand which was clean. The wind was constantly breezing past us and at one point I realized that I hadnt thought of anything but the very present moment in hours. I was lost in nostalgia reminencing of the days at the lake (the good ones that didnt include dave) when I was a kid. I fell in love with Georgia and Allatoona all over again...now if we only owned a boat *sigh*...one of these years. But I cannot explain the feeling other than saying I have finally found my "Happy Place". It was a dream, we picniced on the sand and finally paked the kids up and headed home. The rest of the day wasnt so great and I found myself longing for the lake already. I swear I was a fish in a past life! Finally the day came to an end and the kids were asleep and not long after, so was I.
Sunday we got up early and finished the house up and took the kids to breakfast at McDonalds and it was nice. I felt the ickiness from the afternoon before slipping away. We got done eating and headed up to brian's grandparents house. A place I thought was going to bring us laughs and peace and a lazy country day...boy was I wrong!!! I guess I was the whipping post yesterday and to the full force of Hurricane Claudia and had every comment made about me from Bi-polarism, to my parenting questioned, to having a child's computer toy played loudly (only after humming "The saints go marching in") while I spoke to Oren about my ailing grandfather and his possible impending death...of course that was after being told my Grandma could die at the gym like this *snap* of a heart attack tomorrow and that the only things guaranteed in life are death and taxes. I cant say I have honestly been so hurt in all my life by someone not blood related. If I could sum up yesterday in one word it would be "Horrific". This morning my heart and brain are still hurting and poor Brian just saying how very embarassed he was and how sorry he was for everything said to me.
I swear, Ohio is looking better by the day!!!
And how we came home to meet our Realtor who was leaving after doing our open house. We had only one couple (more than I thought) and they said we were second in their likings. Oh well.
Today Brian is coming home early and I have half a mind to spend the afternoon back at the beach escaping reality a bit more.
On other news, please send some prayers Steve's way. (and my mom too) Paul isnt doing hot and I dont guess he will be leaving the hospital again. I know they are all emotionally drained and could really use a pick me up in the spirit catagory. So please, if you have a moment, send some postive thoughts their way...they need them more than I do.
And Grandma, take it easy today. Make something that makes YOU happy. Go buy some things for the next tree (halloween huh? THAT will be so great and fun!) and maybe take a stroll along the river for a change of scenery. I know the world is always on your shoulders and even reading this today you want to comfort me...but I am ok. I get my strength from a long line of strong Miller/Kaylor women and I have a few more pulling for me from Heaven. Today I am ok...today I want to have you devote to yourself...think of it helping me by you finding a little joy and peace today. And Grandpa, I know life is hard right now and I know you are trying to stay strong and brave for us all...and mostly Grandma. I want you to know how much of a hero you and Grandma are to me. To be so strong in times like these...one can only hope to ride on those curtails of strength and I just wanted to say how proud I am of you.
And some very bad sad news....as I am typing my mom just called me.
Steves Father just passed away.
My heart hurts so bad. I know everyone is hurting with such a sad loss. To lose your dad that has been such an important factor in your life must be unbareable. Please everyone. Send some more prayers to Steve. Paul will be fondly remembered and deeply missed by many. I only wish I had gotten to know him better before he passed away. I am at peace knowing his pain and his suffering is gone now and he can finally breathe good and walk strong in Heaven and see his loved ones from the past...but his loss will impact those here on earth deeply. Rest In Peace Paul...you were a good good man and you made a lot of people happy here on earth.
Love,
Robin
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