What a week!

So we started with the horrific death of our baby, Cupid, last week. A shocking, horrifying, gives me nightmares kind of death that was so unexpected it rocked our worlds and shook us down and was so hard to come to terms with. Even now I for a moment think I see him drinking from the pond out front, or see him sitting on my fence, or expect him to jump up and sit on my bathtub when I am taking a bath....just for a second....before that horrible truth sets in all over again.

Then we finally start "moving on" in life, the crying coming from my baby boy's room at night stopped, and life got a little bit normal for us again. Saturday I decide to take the kids to the mall. We werent going to eat lunch, but the kids were hungry so we decided to eat anyhow. We went to subway, the whole mall was hot with people and it being almost 100* outside and I thought a cold sandwich might hit the spot. We ate our sandwiches, me a cold cut combo, and the kids both a ham and cheese (I.E one slice of ham and cheese...gotta love kids portions.) Christopher decided to drink and entire bottle of chocolate milk with his sandwhich. We got done and started to clean up and christopher felt sick to his stomach from the milk. I started walking with them hoping his belly would settle and all would be good...well all was NOT good....about 10 feet from one of the garbage cans when he clapped his hand over his mouth and his cheeks blew up like a chipmunk. Vomit sprayed out all over his face, shirt, hands, and dripped down his elbows. I ran him to the garbage can, he unloaded his mouth into it and the rest of his stomach. I ran back and for trying to get him napkins form the cookie company that was a few yards away, trying to get him as clean as possible. Then it was back to the bathrooms in the food court to wash up, and then it was home. He felt fine after that, and later that embarassing moment would save him from the illness bewing in me and Laci.
Saturday night I stayed up getting ready for my ARF event on Sunday, excited to finally be working something for SCGSDR. About midnight I started wrapping everything up and then Laci started crying....she had thrown up all over her bed....and floor...and self. Into the shower she went while brian cleaned the bed. She continued to throw up all night long, but by morning she was pretty good, and although not hungry feeling fine. Thats about the time it hit me....in all its severity. I was so sick. I spent the next 48+ hours vomitting, sweating, cramping, aching, and once passing out in the bathroom. That almost landed me in the hospital. I woke up thinking I had to vomit, got to the toilet and sat down....then something started not feeling right. My head got swimmy and felt like it was all bloated up. My arms and legs went numb, my vision got cloudy and bright, my heart started poudning really hard and my breathing got shallow....i started panting...then the awful sound of Kaitydids filled my bathroom....buzzzzz buzzzzz buzzzzzzz growing loud and dying down again....I gagged...rolled my head...tried to call for brian but found I couldnt speak. The sweating kicked in....I felt it running off my face and back, seen it welling up on mt thighs and running down...I blinked...panted...blinked....opened my eyes and I was laying back against the wall, legs straight out in front of me. I had passed out. My light blue shirt was now dark blue with sweat, my whole body, even my mouth, numb and tingly like it had fallen asleep. I called for brian, screamed for him....I couldnt get up I was so weak. He came running in. He freaked out, wanted to call 911, but I said no. I just needed to be cooled down. He stripped off my soaked clothes and got me to my feet and to the bed. I fell asleep for a good hour then.....then I woke up....that terrible numbness coming back to me....I cried "oh my God please no, not again!" I staggered to the bathroom and hit the floor....I pleaded with God to please let this pass....thankfully it did....I ended up not going to the hospital. I stayed sick all day long Sunday, and Monday. Then last night Brian went to my moms to get an A/C unit from her and on the way home a guy was making a UTurn in the middle of a busy 2 lane road close to my moms house, Brian tried to dodge him, even driving into the oncoming traffic lane (it was thankfully empty at the moment) but the collision still happened. The Chrysler SUV plowed into the side of the car that my baby girl was sitting in. Not 18 inches from where she was in her carseat. Brian called me and I came woozy and wobbley with Christopher to come get them. I was so scared. I got there and I said to the cop "my baby girl is in that car, I have to go to it" and he said "not anymore, she is gone" I half yelled at him "what???? gone WHERE????" and he said "her grandpa came and got her and took her home" Relief! She was ok! Brian was standing with the cop and the guy who hit them....I stared at the guy in horror of his stupidity and furiousness of hitting my car with my BABY in it!!! I was so mad I wanted to scream at him, to punch him in the nose, to cuss him like the moron he was for taking such a STUPID risk that could have hurt my baby. I was so mad....but I just stood there. After we were done writing it all up and getting stuff from the car, we were allowed to leave. I went to my moms house and just held Laci in my arms, she hugged me back, and we just stayed like that for a good 5 minutes in the front seat of the corrolla. Then we all went home. We stopped and got some Chicken for dinner, and went home and ate and then got them in bed.

What a night, what a weekend, what a week! Ugh! I am hoping this is the end of the crap storm for us for a while now. I just need a break from life in general. I will be getting that break in about 38 more days! We are finally in the 30s for our countdown to our mountain vacation! I am so excited and really really looking foward to it. I have no idea if the Durango will live through the accident, its at a tow yard now and will be going to a shop by tomorrow. Hopefully I will get into a rental by tomorrow as well. We shall see. Until then we will just play the wait and see game.

For now I am off to do something around my house since I woke up not wanting to barf today....thats always a good thing! I will talk about "Faith" the GSD tomorrow, since I am all typed out today!