Tuesday, August 17, 2010

My Do-Over Week....

Last week started with a bang and gusto! Then everything promptly went to hell...LOL...


So...we are trying last week again...but then yesterday went to hell...so TODAY is the do-over monday from last week...and its fabulous! LOL!!!


Last week was great at first, I made my meeting for Bingo and PTA and Laci was wonderful, I got up and sent laci off to school with no real issues on Tuesday and walked and started my pills....but then monday night, tuesday, wednesday and thursday morning was spent in pain from a bad bad migraine. I chalked it up to my pills and when I decided to stop them for good...within 15 hours the headache went away and stayed gone. On Tuesday of last week I also unexpectedly got my period a week early. It was awful and had me feeling very VERY run down...so walking didnt happen...at all..
Thursday I went to take laci to school and for the first time in my life had to peel a screaming begging crying child off me and let someone hold her while I walked away. She had decided school was NOT somewhere she wanted to be. I cried myself into a new headache and had to redo my makeup before going to work in Christopher's class. I felt horrible!I called  her school before I went in to Christopher's class and they said she cried for about 5-8 minutes and then was up running and playing and laughing...that in fact I had cried 3 times longer than she did...and I was ok with that...I was glad I seemed to hurt worse than she did. My whole day was bad though and I seriously questioned if I should be doing this with her at all. I mean it isnt neccessary exactly and if it isnt fun there isnt any real reason for this. I struggled with that badly all weekend. Then when I was in Christopher's class I found out it was his best friend Evan's birthday and we were invited spur the moment to come for dinner...and then his mom broke down crying. Her 22 year marriage was ending and she was and still is a mess. My heart ached for her and I welled up with tears while I hugged her. I put off homework that night and we went to the birthday party. We were the only ones not family there and Christopher and Evan had a blast til 9pm!! But sadly we had to go because we had school to get ready for Friday.
Friday I spent the day cleaning and steam cleaning. My headache had gone and I was sick of having a filthy house from the kids, and dogs, and cats, and myself tracking stuff in and making my light beige carpets dark brown with darker brown and some yellow splotches everywhere. I was sick of the dust, the filth and the overall delapidation of my once beautiful clean house. So I cleaned...and cleaned...and cleaned...I steam cleaned and swept ceilings, I dusted, and wiped down stair banisters, I cleaned cat rooms, and bedrooms, I organized my closet, and moved the kittens into a playpen in the hallway...I cleaned all Friday, and all Saturday. Christopher got to go for the afternoon into the evening back over to Evan's house and they had a great time. Meanwhile I pulled muscles, made my ankle swell, and worked until my hands and legs and back ached...and now I feel like my house is 85-90% perfect again! Sunday Brian tackled the overgrown back yard and we sprayed for bugs and washed the patio down. We went grocery shopping and got ready for school. By sunday night we were all wiped out!
So Monday I decided would be my do-over week....
I over slept...rushed around to get ready for school, and then Brian flooded the engine out in the blazer and now we have to buy a fuel pump. (almost 300.00 UGH!) and we spent the afternoon driving to his grandparents house to pick up his grandfather's truck to borrow until we can fix the blazer. It was hot and rainy and muggy so walking didnt happen and honestly I was glad to see Monday go away!
Today I got up determined to get my life in order. Brian had a sub car, and I had motivation. I got the kids in school (Laci walked in putting up a fight but forgot when the teacher opened the door over excited and she walked in alone so I stopped as she kept going in to play and they said "go! Go!!"...so I went! I felt AWFUL!! I felt worse guilty today disappearing without saying goodbye than I did peeling her off me Thursday. Brian called the school and they said she was fine and playing and that she was OK...but I still felt like crap.) I came home and walked 3.6 miles and showered and then got an email to come work at Christopher's class, so I headed up. I already love this teacher and I already love being a room mom again with this class. Christopher is so excited to see me come in too. It warms my heart to see him light up like that.
Now I am headed back up to his school to get him. I picked laci up and she started to pout and welled up and said I left her and she didnt know where I was at...man that hurt...I wont make that mistake again. Trial and error can be painful! We came home and had a little strawberry ice cream bar and now we are going to get Christopher and head to the Party Store to see if halloween stuff is coming out. The kids and us are very excited for Halloween this year!
I am ready for bed though! Its an easy dinner night thank God and I will be in bed early!

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