Started the week off on a terrible foot with Christopher. Having more issues with him and these crazy fears he has about everything under the sun and back. He is scared of the trailers, he is scared of school, he is afraid he wont make friends, there are bullies at recess, he is afraid something bad will happen to me while he is at school, he is sad.....I finally had a blowup yesterday morning and was over heard by the neighbors thanks to Laci holding the door open and got the hands on hips, head shaking look like I was the douche bag mom. Wow...lived my whole life for my kids since becoming a parent and they live like kings while I live like a pauper, yet somehow, someway, I got the "look". I sent him with Brian instead to school bc at that point I was going to be late and couldn't handle it anymore. I took Laci to school (blissfully easy) and then get the call from Brian that he was keeping him home from school bc the way he was acting there was no way he could go to school. I was HOT boy! But, I didn't go over him and let him make the call. He drove around with him all day and they had a day long conversation...which still wasn't good enough for me. I sent an email to his counselor at school bc I was just at a loss, I have never dealt with this before or even heard of it. She actually called me after school which was awesome. She gave me some great tips and pointers and we are going to try a timed session every day to express and squash all the crazy thoughts and he will NOT miss any more school and he will also work on standing up for himself to the kids giving him a hard time at school. Today they two counsellors are going to have a meeting with him and see if they can't work with him and see if there is something else that they can work through with him and help him with. She will call me this afternoon and let me know how it went and see what's going on.
On the much needed upturn this morning, its Picture Day at Laci's school. I got her up and dressed her cute in pink and brown with braids, and we went to school. On the way she told me about some girl who was crying yesterday, and on her own she said "this is getting old!" and I said "yes it is! Old like Santa Claus!" and boy did that make her mad! She snapped back "Santa isn't OLD he is NICE!!!"....ummm ok, when did old become the opposite of nice? LMAO!!! Then we got to her school and I walked her in and did the whole bowling move....but before I could turn to the door she spun around and my heart dropped....here it goes I thought....and then she smiled and threw her hand up and said "bye mommy!" and spun back around to play! Wow!!! Here came the tears again....the hardest hurdle of growing up so far and it seems we have jumped it finally! I was filled with sadness, pride, joy, and just an overwhelming mix of emotion at that little wave and smile. What a crazy feeling!
And more good news? This weather!!! Two mornings in a row of mid 60s and low humidity!! I actually still have my windows open at almost 10am! Woot!!! Could it be that fall may actually be on its way?? Or if that is too much wishful thinking, maybe just that the 80% humidity and 105* temps may be gone for a while now? Oh please please please let that be the case!! I so badly want to be out walking at the park right now, but I feel like my sickness is getting into my lungs, and I have been coughing into being lightheaded for days now and having that icky cold sweating thing...so as wonderful as it feels, looks like I am waiting a bit longer before walking again...sigh!
Today consists of cleaning, and then errand running. So far this stay at home mom while kids are in school hasn't exactly equalled mom relaxing and watching netflix or window shopping! So far its consisted of laundry, cleaning, cooking, and errands! Bleh!
Anyhow, praying today ends as wonderfully as it began....I need the mental break! This has been the 2 weeks from hell I tell you!
Happy Tuesday!
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